Life update

I
Week 14 has already over and it is time for study week. What do you expect I'll be doing in study week? Movie marathon la of course.

Well it's been a stressful week for me. Not so stressful la cause I'm a calm person (cewah). So I need a short gateway before sitting for my exam. The problem is, I don't know where to go. And I don't know with whom I want to go. Biasalah lone ranger. But I reaaaaaally want to mandi laut right now. Kalau kat Perak dulu boleh chow Lumut ke Pangkor ke. Paling cikai Teluk Batik pun jadila.



II
I joined a club in my uni. It is a club doing outdoor activities. There're lots of guys in this club I tell you. Last month I went for a kursus for this club and the ratio of girls is 1:5 and I was so awkward.

This club ada buat solat hajat this week for final exam. There're kambing bakar my favourite as well. But I didn't go because I was segan. So stupid.



III
I got rejected for my JPA Scholarship. I was so sad I cried until my eyes turned red. I really really hoped that I can get this scholarship because I did quite well during diploma. Tapi belum ada rezeki lagi.

I didn't attend my diploma convocation because I was sick. Dengue. Screw you mosquitoes! Yeah, it was very sad and depressing because I couldn't naik pentas, get my sijil that I worked hard on. I even couldn't wear my selempang (I got ANC).

But it was okay. Dah redha.




IV
There's one friend that close to me since I can't remember. We share lots of things. And by lots of things I mean music, movies and life updates eventho we never meet. Kind of internet friend. One day I asked this friend if dia wants to have breakfast with me and dia said okay. It wasn't awkward at all. I feel very comfortable.

And after that breakfast few days after that this friend asked me to have dinner with dia. It just a dinner I think. We ate, we told stories, we laughed.

We had several dinners together until I started to feel something. Yes, it's me who first asked for breakfast together but it was just a breakfast je, as friends.

So one day this friend asked me for a dinner and I rejected, because, I started feeling uncomfortable. I'm scared I have feeling for this friend. I told my girlfriend about this and she said that I'm stupid. It just a dinner.

The truth is, I'm scared. Yes I have moved on. But I'm not ready to have my heart broken again. What if that person didn't feel the same about me? Haih.